The Problem With Caring

Caring for one another is essential in our lifetimes. It's necessary for us to be there for one another to survive. However, caring isn't always a good thing for one's personal health. In fact, caring for another can be one of the most agonizing things a person can do to themselves because they have to worry for another person's well-being on top of their own. We can't help this either, if you care, you care. You can't just drop it, even if you were hurt at one time by someone you care for. I fear that I am victim of this whole phenomenon. I will always care for certain people, and when I manage to repress those caring feelings for some, it's just brought back up ten fold and I find myself caring even more for their happiness. I hate how flip floppity I am on all of this, I feel dishonest because of it. But I can't help it, I don't know what I want. Well, I do, but I don't know if it's even possible to achieve, so it makes it hard to think about. I want something so badly in my life right now, but it isn't possible- at least not for now. Maybe I'll get there some years down the road, maybe I'll find a different path to care about. All I know is that I care for someone a great deal, and it hurts so badly...